This month seems to have flown by.  I have a essay to do - it was due yesterday.  Hmmm ... I seem to be my little lost self - either have to many people to love or none, and yet I seem to constantly feel alone.

I don't know ...... maybe something will click one day. There are several people who I miss a lot ... several ones from #New_Zealand room - and they know who they are.  Yep, maybe it is just part of being a teenager - but it hurts when you see them destroying their bodies and souls so much.  There is one guy who I'd prob kill if I saw him for what he has done to someone I would claim to be a 'soul mate'.  I will always cry for her and hope one day she will be able to join me.

So, what Have I been doing?  Well you will have noticed some new pic's as I have a scanner and a printer - scanner does 48bit ... bla .... bla  - it is a ScanExpress 1200ED.  Also got a printer - Epson Colour 460.

Well, today is the 25th and later this time next week I will be in ChCh for the weekend.   Hmmmm - should be fun and be good to catch up with some new Firetalk friends.

I have met some good friends in Firetalk, and some new ones in TheMadHouse.  I don't know - I guess I am just socially immature and have no knowledge of how to cope. Can I risk falling for someone on line again?  what if they live overseas?  Is it different if they live in NZ and I can meet them IRL?
 I don't know aye.

As I look through my Diary little seems to have happened.  I am bored with Uni, but cannot think of anything else to do.  I rang my lawyer up on Friday. Hope to have some news to tell in around 3 weeks.

Be has moved from the Hughes and is presently living - ummm ... not sure to be honest.  I was looking through my pic's and each time I came across one of Be memories came flooding back - was time for a damm good cry.  God I miss Be.

Well that is enough for the moment.  I might write more another time soon.

Well it is Monday and I am 700 words into an assignment which was due in of Friday.  No matter what I will hand something in tomorrow - even if I only get 40% - is better than 0%.  No idea why I can't write the essay - I know what I want to write but nothing is coming out as yet.  Oh well.

The discussion in NotionOcean is going well ... a lot of disagreement - but no flaming ... just sensible, logical discussion - well maybe with my exceptions.

Well I am going up to Christchurch this weekend for a break and to think a few things through - staying with a friend ... and see how things develop.

Well I have typed over 1, 100 words of my essay and have the 3rd section to finish - should do that easily by midday tomorrow.  Be good to get rid of it.