Right Now -
  • somebody is very proud of you.
  • somebody is thinking of you.
  • somebody is caring about you.
  • somebody misses you.
  • somebody wants to talk to you.
  • somebody wants to be with you.
  • somebody hopes you aren't in trouble.
  • somebody is thankful for the support you have provided.
  • somebody wants to hold your hand.
  • somebody hopes everything turns out all right.
  • somebody wants you to be happy.
  • somebody wants you to find him/her.
  • somebody is celebrating your successes.
  • somebody wants to give you a gift.
  • somebody thinks that you ARE a gift.
  • somebody hopes you're not too cold, or too hot.
  • somebody wants to hug you.
  • somebody loves you.
  • somebody admires your strength.
  • somebody is thinking of you and smiling.
  • somebody wants to be your shoulder to cry on.
  • somebody wants to go out with you and have a lot of fun.
  • somebody thinks the world of you.
  • somebody wants to protect you.
  • somebody would do anything for you.
  • somebody wants to be forgiven.
  • somebody is grateful for your forgiveness.
  • somebody wants to laugh with you.
  • somebody remembers you and wishes that you were there.
  • somebody is praising God for you.
  • somebody needs to know that your love is unconditional.
  • somebody values your advice.
  • somebody wants to tell you how much they care.
  • somebody wants to share their dreams with you.
  • somebody wants to hold you in their arms.
  • somebody wants YOU to hold them in your arms.
  • somebody treasures your spirit.
  • somebody wishes they could STOP time because of you.
  • somebody praises God for your friendship and love.
  • somebody can't wait to see you.
  • somebody loves you for who you are.
  • somebody loves the way you make them feel.
  • somebody wants to be with you.
  • somebody wants you to know they are there for you.
  • somebody's glad that you're his/her friend.
  • somebody wants to be your friend.
  • somebody stayed up all night thinking about you.
  • somebody is alive because of you.
  • somebody is wishing that you noticed him/her.
  • somebody wants to get to know you better.
  • somebody wants to be near you.
  • somebody misses your advice/guidance.
  • somebody has faith in you.
  • somebody trusts you.
  • somebody needs you to send them this letter.
  • somebody needs your support.
  • somebody needs you to have faith in them.
  • somebody will cry when they read this.
  • somebody needs you to let them be your friend.
  • somebody hears a song that reminds them of you.
5th February

Well it is the 5th of February 2000.  Prada has just leveled the finals of the Louis Vuitton 4-4, a woolen mill in dunedin has closed with the loss of over 140 jobs (and several friends have been effected) and I guess I am still alive.

Well the last time I wrote was around mid-november I guess, and unlike last time I am not intending to update what I have done.  I managed to pass all my exams for the 2nd semester, but apart from that not a hell of a lot seems to have been happening in my like.

I am still dateless-in-Dunedin, and I guess I will save money this Valentines day. It is hard to believe that a little over a year ago I was so happy - so much in love ....

I haven't been in #New_Zealand for I guess close on 2 months now.  Well, why bother going when on one hand people ask you for advice (which I am willing to offer) and then abuse you in the process.  I can't be bothered with that shit anymore.

I am starting to cut down my time in chat rooms and I am seriously thinking of getting rid of ICQ.  I have recently been using a program called Firetalk.

I guess I can not be bothered investing anymore energy into relationships with people who seem to enjoy talking and unwilling to give.  I guess I have little if any to give anymore and need to recharge myself.

Well, enough for me at the mo ... catch ya all later.  I'll leave ya with the ords of my theme song to sing to:

Somebody To Love
Words and music by Freddie Mercury
 

Can anybody find me somebody to love?

Each morning I get up I die a little
Can barely stand on my feet
(Take a look at yourself)Take a look in the mirror and cry
Lord what you're doing to me
I have to spend all my years in believing you
But I just can't get no relief Lord
Somebody (somebody) ooh somebody (somebody)
Can anybody find me somebody to love?

I work hard (he works hard) everyday of my life
I work till I ache my bones
At the end (at the end of the day)
I take home my hard earned pay all on my own
I get down (down) on my knees (knees)
And I start to pray (praise the Lord)
'Til the tears run down from my eyes
Lord somebody (somebody) ooh somebody (please)
Can anybody find me somebody to love?

(He wants help)
Every day - I try and I try and I try -
But everybody wants to put me down
They say I'm goin' crazy
They say I got a lot of water in my brain
Got no common sense
(He's)I got nobody left to believe
Yeah - yeah yeah yeah

Ooh
Somebody (somebody)
Can anybody find me somebody to love?
(Anybody find me someone to love)

Got no feel I got no rhythm
I just keep losing my beat (you just keep losing and losing)
I'm OK I'm alright (he's alright)
I ain't gonna face no defeat
I just gotta get out of this prison cell
One day I'm gonna be free Lord

Find me somebody to love find me somebody to love
Find me somebody to love find me somebody to love
Find me somebody to love find me somebody to love
Find me somebody to love find me somebody to love
Find me somebody to love find me somebody to love
Somebody somebody somebody somebody somebody
Find me somebody find me somebody to love
Can anybody find me somebody to love
Find me somebody to love
Find me somebody to love
Find me somebody to love
Find me find me find me
Find me somebody to love
Somebody to love
Find me somebody to love...

Waitangi Day 2000  (6th Feb)

Well today it happened ....... the last of the people causing me shit has decided to stop annoying me ..... maybe after the pain has left the freedom will come.  Asks you for help and them kicks you in the guts ...... thanks for that.  I guess the words of the following song by Queen are so true.
 

Too Much Love Will Kill You
Words and music by Brian May, Frank Musker and Elizabeth Lamers

I'm just the pieces of the man I used to be
Too many bitter tears are raining down on me
I'm far away from home
And I've been facing this alone
For much too long
I feel like no-one ever told the truth to me
About growing up and what a struggle it would be
In me tangled state of mind
I've been looking back to find
Where I went wrong

Too much love will kill you
If you can't make up your mind
Torn between the lover
And the love you leave behind
You're headed for disaster
'cos you never read the signs
Too much love will kill you
Every time

I'm just the shadow of the man I used to be
And it seems like there's no way out of this for me
I used to bring you sunshine
Now all I ever do is bring you down
How would it be if you were standing in my shoes
Can't you see that it's impossible to choose
No there's no making sense of it
Every way I go I'm bound to lose

Too much love will kill you
Just as sure as none at all
It'll drain the power that's in you
Make you plead and scream and crawl
And the pain will make you crazy
You're the victim of your crime
Too much love will kill you
Every time

Too much love will kill you
It'll make your life a lie
Yes, too much love will kill you
And you won't understand why
You'd give your life, you'd sell your soul
But here it comes again
Too much love will kill you
In the end...
In the end.

Well coming to the end of today - and I am starting to feel a bit better. I have started a site for people I am pissed off with.  Go and have a look.
20 February

A Touch Of An Angel

I walk this journey feeling so alone,
My heart cries out for a place to call home.
My eyes search the heavens above,
As I see it's beauty and feeling it's love.

A touch upon my heart, a feeling of relief,
As I feel an angel coming to seek.
As the air flutters across my cheek,
A divine presence is there so sweet.

She comforts my soul in that much needed hour,
Giving assurance, the pain she devours.
Filling me with peace with her presence so pure,
Just letting me know that my life is secure.

An angel came that night for me,
As I searched my soul, she made me see.
Through all life's burdens we have someone that cares,
We just need to seek our angel aware.

~ Donald D. Campbell ~

Copyright 1999