Well it is Good Friday and I went to the service to a combined service at Grants Braes Union Church.  Still suffering from the Passover meal on Maundy Thursday.  Think I had to much wine LOL.

Have met another friend - Hi Excite :o)  Great chatting with you.

Well Yesterday was good - the Passover meal followed by a communion service.  Earlier in the day I finished a Assignment on a Sura of the Qur'an - Surat al-Baqarah,  'The Cow'.

One of my very important online friends is Marfia_Chick - u wound never guess that by looking at my Guest book - which I hope you remember to sign some time soon.

Well this time on Good Friday I was feeling great - at the moment I feel like shit.  Seems I have managed to upset everyone and no one wants to chat with me - well except my real friends.

For those who do not know - I have a new ICQ number - and will be checking my old one on occasions - maybe monthly.

Enough for now.

Well almost lunch time and feel about the same I did yesterday aye..... guess you discover who your real friends are.

Well guess things can't get much worse and although I have taken my site off-line I'll still keep this upto date so when it goes back there will be my side of the story.

To one person I do apologies sincerely.  I have tried to explain to you why I did what I did, not as an excuse but as a mitigating explanation.

Well I have a new ICQ number, and some other stuff.  It has gone 2 am - so is tec. Wed 7th.

While I am waiting to reconnect to the net thought I'd write to say as at 10:13pm I am feeling ok.  I have chatted to most people in NZ room and most have been polite ... so that has helped my mood improve a lot.

I have started to make some good friends from Newsgroups ~ and I have over 100 Picts of friends on my Web site.

Well today was a good day - have started chatting to most of the ppl who go upset and seemed that it was feeding on itself - the rumours that is.

One thing I have leant ios that as quickly as people get upset with you they become friends again - esp. when they realise the truth was not as bad as they thought.  This week has taught me some valurable lessons = hopefully it has others also :o)

I am off tomorrow - again I am not pleased with a certain 14 year old - hmmmmmm ....... well she will receive my thoughts when she returns from Dunedin.  But the Highlanders did win again tonite against the  Crusaders 23-6.

One thing the casual reader wil notice is the large gap between recent dates.  The reason is I have not been in the mood to share anything.

I have started to keep a offline diary/journal so I will type some of the stuff from there for your entertainment

-13/4/99
Well as usual I sit here, 2 assignments are due on Friday - which I am still to start.  Also a class presentation is due on Wednesday - a lot if time in the library I think.

Well just gone 6pm and I am in the Octagon waiting for a bus.  Then tea and I guess assignments ~ well after e.mail and ICQ and a chat - LOL.

- 14.4.99
Well half way through my 1st assignment - will try to finish it today.  It has just gone 1pm and I feel I have done nothing today.  I am tired, fedup and depressed - that's life I guess

- 15.4.99
Well I'm still to complete 2 essays for tomorrow - posponed that class presentation.

- 22/4/99
Well it has been a week since I last wrote anything - why?  Well I've been down with my usual winter depression, and down with life in general.  No point writing anything down here - but thank God for Internet friends :o).  Oh, Man United is in the European Cup final or something.

Well got my exam timetable - 4 exams in 6 days - yuck.  Did my class presentation for Rels 308 - don't think Greg appreciated it when I refered top Abraham as a psycopathic lunitic. Guess I might get 6/10 or something like that.

- 28/4/99
Yet another large gap in my life - I have been trying to figure out my life and making appoinments with he careers advisor.  Seems I should be heading in the Social worker or Lawqyer direction.  Did that jobquest programme and it came up with 30 suggestions, which included:- Probation Officer, Social Worker, Detective, Diplomatic Officer, Barrister, Community Worker, Minister of Areligion, Press Secretary, Solicitor,Member of parliament and local Government Representative.

Well back to today (29th) and I will be heading into town soon - a meeting with my  Spiritual Director.

Hear Their Call
If a friend should call,
Will you be there, will you hear their plea,
Would you understand the needs they have,
Can you open your mind and give of yourself,
Have you the heart to carry you through?

If a friend should call,
Does your giving show clear,
Could you be there in the worst of times,
Is your soul true to their cause,
Should you jump at the opportunity to share your wealth?

If a friend should call,
Are you the friend they think they have,
Where would you turn, or be willing to face,
Do you know your friend wants you there,
Has your courage faded or remains strong?

If a friend should call,
Give your attention to them,
Show them your strength,
Allow them a place to lean,
Listen to their cry for help.

Poem By~GravyDave~ ©
June 1998

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